Today is a Tuesday, 1:35 pm. Things i hate at work:

Stop using the word ignorant, unless you mean ignorant. Why is this the latest catch phrase? Honestly, it bugs the shit out of me. This person in the office keeps on saying that word to one of my team mates. Linte sya.

Certain people grant me the opportunity to cry. I appreciate it, even though it makes me a little uncomfortable. But at work it was different, i was so fuckin pissed at the situation yesterday. My day at work didnt start right,and so it didnt even ended up right.. which is very unusual for me to deal with. Aaarrgghh. Am i like a big deal over here? Sweet.

I have no idea who the hell I am. Just when I think I’m on the road to "self discovery" something happens that totally throws me off track. I’m trying to set goals for myself, but I always seem to lose interest. I have so many interests, I don’t know where to go first. I have no idea what I want because I want it all. Does that make sense? Fuck no. I’m turning down opportunities because they don’t "feel right". Probably not the best way to go about doing things. I’m so scared that what I want, i won’t get, and I’ll end up being stuck in some 9 to 5 hell hole, returning damaged merchandise for some people. Oh yeah, I’m talking about employment now. Why can’t I just suck it up and follow my logic? Because i have been thinking these shits are all short term, though…i know its not but i used to think that it’s always the long term stuff that’s going to have a lasting effect.. Right?  Things are going nowhere. Beggars can’t be choosers, but my mind’s too thick to absorb that. I don’t seem to trust myself whatsoever, and I’m gonna get myself into big trouble. I know it. It’s time for the black sheep to do what she does best.

Oh well…it’s my day off! Yay!