I’ve returned!

What a busy week. For starters, i can’t believe James Brown is already dead. I’m still in denial.

Christmas was good. It was so great to be with my family.

But really nice to have dated someone i like. How, when and where?..it’s a secret. Too bad he already left the area. The feeling has been awhile. I woke up this morning feeling wonderful, feeling great at work.. I felt so productive all day long..until i found out that he left…Im hurt. Well, i know he is leaving, but not today. I really thought he is leaving the next day.really. i swear. (though we bought his plane ticket together). This feeling is killing me. Its like a knife on my back twisting, turning and hurting beyond all reason. Ouchie oh wah-wah. I don’t feel good. I feel like garbage. Anyways, i will see him soon. I hope. Crap.

Maybe i have to ease up on beer. But wait, i love beer. Maybe on Pepsi. Its like I can’t live without Pepsi. But i have to live without it. Because they make me feel fuzzy and wavery, like I’m not really there, like I’m just a sliver of tv static walking around. Like that chick from the Ring? By the way… I think the makers of the Ring should sue the makers of the Grudge, because they took all those flashy Japanese cinematographical tricks and cloned them like a smudge of DNA off a toilet seat.

I should be a film critic.
Or a poet.
Or a fashion designer.
Or a rock star.

Err..confused.

Basically, this entry is a symbolic of a universal blandness. Today my life felt like plain oatmeal… healthy, practical, and fucking boring. It’s a taboo for reasons involving my feelings.

I cannot and will not be responsible for this feeling (eh?). so, no more burning cheeks, eyebrow liners, nervous laughs, lip gloss. Fucking oatmeal.

I hope you all had super cool holiday season, whatever you celebrate.